Disconnection Is a Weird Feeling

*Wild Card Post*

Once again I don’t really have the energy to write. So I’m just going to tell you about a random experience I keep having.

I feel like I disconnect from reality sometimes.

I don’t really know how it happens, or what to call it.

I just know that it’s distance, separation from my body- but not quite an out of body experience.

Just more away from my conciousness.

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I’m in the back of my thoughts, not concentrating on one thing too hard.

Just living through a chex mix of concepts, friction rubbing them together into confusion.

Then noise becomes hazy, unclear, speech becomes a slurred automation.

Sometimes there’s ringing, sometimes black around the corners of my vision.

Nothing feels real, nothing feels tangible.

It’s like I’m feeling things, but not through my own body.

Awareness is almost lost, or been misplaced.

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It feels like a moment and a lifetime together.

Conciously, I know it’s only seconds.

But time seems to slip, as I’m tucked away somewhere else.

It’s comforting, yet scary.

I don’t really know how to describe it.

Some people might call it daydreaming, or sleepwalking, but I don’t really know.

The only word that I can think of is dissociation.

Which is pretty much defined as detachment- whether that be from body, people, or your surroundings.

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It’s kind of a weird thing, only has ever happened a handful of times.

But has become more frequent recently.

Anway, kind of weird… I don’t know. Just needed something to write for this week’s post.

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-The Splintered Pencil