Panicked Anxiety

Cuz this is all I can think about right now….. Cries.

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Anxiety,

the things we don’t see.

The twitch of a nerve,

the beating of a heart.

The darkness in fire,

the chaos in silence.

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Sweaty palms,

shaking hands,

pounding heart.

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Late nights,

exhasted eyes,

panicked head.

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An overloaded brain

just trying to make sense of it all.

An innocent heart

just trying to stay alive.

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Anxiety,

A moment-

No.

A day-

No.

A lifetime

of crazed adrenalin.

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I lie awake surrounded by

questions I don’t know the answer to,

promises I wonder if I’ll get to keep,

and thoughts that crack the surface

of my protection I call denial.

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And the whole time I keep asking myself,

Can I just skip 2020,

cancel the entire year,

so I can move on with my life,

and stop battling the unknown?

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Because if 2020 is the cliff the world falls off of,

I’m done dancing inches away from the edge.