I have none, yet I should.
Right?
Because now I have more time,
And I’ve grown tired of watching movies,
Tired of scrolling through instagram,
Tired of sleeping.
But still, I procrastinate.
Even though I’m desperately searching
For anything to do,
I still don’t do school.
I’d rather waste my time
pondering over canceled vacations,
And dreaming of a normal life.
.
The thing is,
I never agreed to put my life on hold,
It was just an order,
An expectation.
All in the name of saving lives.
But I think I’ve already died,
Sucked away, when I vacumed the floors
For the 15th time.
Wilted, when I continued to stare out the window
Day after day.
Manic, when somehow the rubber pencil
Has become the most facinating thing again.
.
The days are long,
And the nights are empty.
I have so much to do.
But everyday I wonder,
How can I escape reality?
SAME!!! Everything is w e I r d and in my brain it feels like everything is optional when it is most certainly NOT.
Thanks for this. I hope things get better soon.
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Ikr…. same though, hope we can all survive this last week and a half!
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